extraordinary

been a while.

2005-05-20T12:20:00.000-07:00

hellooo i havent been on blog for a while. but i have really nothing to say. i must say that i have been a lot happier latley than any days of last year or this year. which works out for me. well i so wanted to go to the spring banquet, unfortunately ended up not going there for some reaons. im okay. there will always be next year.
lalala..this week, i have been so far away from God, the promise that i had with God such as leading the worship, didnt last long and im trying to keep it up no matter what it takes. its so hard to give up things that i like in order to fulfill His satisfaction or needs. welll.
nothing else to say.
lets just be happy for now.

break time n happy bday cassie

2005-03-18T20:30:00.000-08:00

yes im leaving soon. im super excited about seeing all the universities in the states, especially harvard. there will be equations and all the shits on all over the wall dont you think?! once i find it out, i will let you guys know homies. full of nerds. anwyay i havent got any car letter from any of you people. how sad am i?! god let me not have a hope in them cause they all suck. lol mhmm i just finished packing, not a lot of stuffs, ive got my mp3 player, some dvd sthat i might get to watch when i have spare time, and english book cause when i come back, i would have a lot of quizs and tests right?! goshh hate this part. mmmm. but when im there, i will have a lot of fun.. personally i have never been to the states soo yeah what a noob. anyway my point being, miss me alot and talk about me okay?! lol

p.s. and on march 24th tell cassie that i say happy her 17th birthday!!
and cass, if you reading this, dont get mad @ me for not being able to be with you and sing happy bday song. i have got no excuse this time. sigh. but be happy and have fun. happy bday.

mmhmm

2005-03-07T06:52:00.000-08:00

tough day
i dont know what to say
i just hate myself
hate you john

march break.

2005-03-04T14:53:00.000-08:00

so then i had a badminton game few days ago, actually yesterday, but seems to have been long ago. anyway my point being, we lostttt lol we came so close, but i got too emotional and got carried away. and im just assuming that rachel, my partner couldnt say anything but "its okay" everytime because she was afraid that i would go nuts. lol yah she did pretty awesome, but not meeh. ughh we should have won. sry rachel if you are reading this lol haha. mmm lately i havent hung out with my friends whatsoever, kept on making lame excuses so that i didnt have to go out n' chill. i dunno why. i havent been happy for a while for some reasons and especially when my parents and i had this argument about my marks. goshhh i so wanna killl myself. anyway march break yay! time to cool it off, and states in 2 weeks.. i was never excited about one thing like this. lol seriously.
oh and. for those who are going to ofsaa for basketball, hope that y'all losee. im so evil. :D

sweet

2005-02-26T19:58:00.000-08:00

im excited. i will get to go and see 20 of universities in states over the march break, well technically, its after march break. 19th to 27th i think. whoaa.. and plus get to skip school.
and i just noticed that during march, only 3 days i would get to go to skewl. see how nice that is?! sweet deal

good talk

2005-02-18T20:04:00.000-08:00

in chemistry class, we talked about whether if it is okae to date or good for us to be in a relationship. which was very helpful and i realized again that God should be centred in all i do. he has to be my number #1 pritority you know. gosh it sounds so easy, but its not really when you actually have to make a decision between God and other things im going through right now. anyway i got a haircut and i like it. i like to keep my hair short so it doesnt get in the way. well off topic lol so yeah oh it was funny when she was talking to us, needed some feedbacks from us right?! and all of them started staring at me and asking questions. you could picture that you know. k i was sooo embarrassed really. not at the fact that i had a relationship, but just you know what i mean. neyway. this week was the best week i have ever had this year. wasnt depressed that much lol and good changes although there were some bads. overall, i loved it. i hope that it continues and everything goes well. smile.

oh. and im going to ottawa on monday. at night. so for those of you who read this, write me a car letter cause i wont be at skewl on tuesday you know. :D

valentines day

2005-02-14T20:06:00.000-08:00

who wants to be my valentine?! i feel so lonely today lol anyone? k

cant sleep

2005-02-08T22:50:00.000-08:00

its past 2 already and im not still able to go to sleep for some reasons. i have "too many minds" a lot of stuffs to think about when i lie on my bed. its weird thing to do. today was pretty good today. i mean i spent great time with myself, my friends, going out for lunch, watched vball, and i was the score keeper with sam for the juniors lol and amanda wanted to take pictures with me, and we started talking and it goes on and on. she made my day. im kiddding lol lalalala. mmmmmmmm what else.

yah andd..mmhmm. oh yah rachel fung cried on my shoulder after the vball game cuz she didnt play well. but cheer up cause you were awesome. smile. my day was almost all about adalia lol i dunnoo have been talking about her to a lot of different people. and everyone said that she is cute or something. which i totally agree lol n' there was rachelle who was just into this imginary tennis player named ryan, and she wouldnt stop talking about him. in the bible class we were kinda afraid that he might/could be her cousin.lo lhaha. and lastly, cassie. not much to say. but all i could say is that i felt bad and i was sorry for... i am not sure what im sorry for but i will figure it out by myself. hard to say. we are like walled up against each other, not talking for likee a month. sighh.

whoaa..why is it all about girls? anyway im sleepy now. good nite everyone.

ughhhh

2005-02-06T18:02:00.000-08:00

im sorry (as in i really am not) for those who wanted to make me feel better. but im going through a lof stuffs at once and its just overwhelming you know. that is, mostly if not all, why i was so down and depressed lately and especially last friday. oh shiiiitttt. but i must tell you that some people just gotta stop pissing me off. how hard can it be? gosh. give me a break would ya?!

have you ever?!

2005-02-02T19:28:00.000-08:00

have you ever loved any particular thing or someone but you just had to let it go off you?! that does make you feel sick doesnt it?! hard to say. a lot of personal stuffs going on n' cant tell you everything u know, started with basketball and certain friends and in a sense even my happiness. it's all gone. but lately im trying to get all of these back no matter what it takes. well definitely certian things i cant get em back because it is too late like..i and my parents have decided not to let me play basketball because doing well at skewl has to be the first priority and its kind hard to manage them all for me. so i guess not. my ship has sailed. lol

omg guess what happened? have you ever talked to yourself before? sure you have. i do that like a lot of time in fact every single day. taking abou weirdness. so then i was in the washroom taking a washroom break. peeing and was talking to myself, i wasnt pretty much aware of people around me. so basicaly what happened was aaron heard what i said and thought i am weird or something. yahh.. he told on me, and now that everyone knoes that im a great pee-talker. lol this is what they call me.. haha funny pee-talker. what a great name. but thank god that he didnt hear what i said. if he did, i would have been embarassed. sigh lol anyway. i miss things. why is life so hard. goshh

so not my day

2005-02-01T03:12:00.000-08:00

it is now 2:53 am in the morning, i never stay up this late to do something. i am literally dying, my body cannot function whoa. so we had this anthropology group assignment that we have to come up wtih some ideas that make a perfect school. and i was to draw the layouts of the whole school. and since this stupid doofie perfect school has a lot of things that you would never possibly even imagine like oh whatever. but most of all, you know what was really annoying while drawing?! it was definitely the fact that i had to draw these stupid girls and boys washrooms separately and the elevators each floor and this school had likee 8 floors i swear to god lol but believe me, they look awesome. i drew like all the details of the like even washrooms, they all have 5 toilets and one for the disabilities and stuffs. haha..im so nice.

mmm its already feburary. i cannot believe that valentines day is near at the corner. whoa. haah funny story. when i was in grade 9, the year when i first came to pca, nada came up to me and asked me if i could be her valentine. n i remember saying i dunno because i didnt even know her and my english was really bad, still bad now by the way, and she was about to cry because i didnt say yes, and i changed my mind i said yes again and made her happy and all lol. yahh that was like 3 years ago. she must have liked me. but not anymore because she is with someone else now right?! haha look cute together. well. nahh. but whatever. sigh. i think i need a girlfriend or something. i feel so lonely. no one to think of before i go to sleep. i feel nothing. "i am like a superman without a cape." random saying. k but you gotta love it.

oh yah today i was watching the amandaz basketball game, and mr northcott asked people randomly if they had a camera on them so that he could take a picture of me. what the gayyy. he was like. " whoa john kim is on the court again, can any of you take a picture of me and him?!" im like..blushing and embarassed. whoa. talking about faggishness. lol he so wants me.

oh. i played one on one with anthony. and i got owned really badly. 17-6 or something. around there pretty much. lol sighhorz.
this is not my day.

freaks

2005-01-31T09:56:00.000-08:00

so much thiings to say about mr. gee. why dont we just start with calling him a "freak." so then he gave us 3 math questions for us to do, which will eventually cover up some portion of our exam, this is what we call bonus. lol andd whoa. so hardyy.. he calls that bonus, but it is really not. lol trying to make us think that he is nice or something. ughh whatever. i knew that they would hard anyway.

oh yah so there was a bball practice this morning and you know how i always come to school early right?! so i walked in to watch them play, and few mins before the practice ended, he started talking about me, saying that john should be sorry for what he has done to our team, and if he ever wants to come back to play basketball, he should come up to me and say im sorry or something. omgg lets get this straight you phat-doofus-who-yells-at-me-all-the-time! when did i ever say that i wanna come back?! lol he wishes. just cause they lost the game few days ago. oh oh i know why! cuz i wasnt there! pshhhh..he is rude,selfish, and what a whore. but yah i kinda still like him. how can i forget that he was literally in love with me. ughh.. i know its hard to get over me. its like im hot or something yall. dont you think lol

this is what rachel wrote when we had a spare. here it goes:
i heart rachel cause shes hot, sexy, and cool, beautiful, smart, can beat me in basketball, has a cute younger cousin whos name isn't amanda or cheryl, cute, funny, has a best friend cassie who i'm still not so over, and yeah, i just heart her.

ps. i say they are all lies, especially the one it says "has a cute cousin whose name isnt amanda or cheryl. you need to see them once more rach, they are unbelievably haute. lol you KNOW it.

great expectations

2005-01-30T15:10:00.000-08:00

great expectations, is the book im reading for my english isp, and this is pretty neat so i kinda encourage you guys all to read it if you have spare time. he, the main character, is pretty much satisfied with the world he lives in right now, and not anymore, so he tries to jump out of the water in a sense with his new "great expectations." as i was reading it, i was like "oh thats me!" lol except the fact that im not going anywhere right now.

thanks for all who posted comments on my blog, and sry for amanda because i accidently deleted your comment. aiya. because there was an icon which kinda looked like a pencil or whatever, and didnt know what it does right?! so i clicked it, and it says that "this post has been successfully deleted". i was like. oh crap i didnt mean that. COME BACK. lol im sorry.

i was gonna go to the movie with cass, alf, ant, jake, etc those ppl i usually hang out with, but i called my mom if i could watch a movie, at the same time, she was sick and waiting for me to come back so that we could go out for lunch. and i drove them to fairview and all of sudden i changed my mind for various reasons and yah. went out for lunch with my mom. and actually this time, for the first time in my life, i bought her lunch. by that i mean my friend, i paid all. lol the total turned out to be 35. i was like.. whoa i eat so much?! k NO WONDER I GET FAT. geez so im not eating dinner right now lol i should be fastingg or going on a diet or something.

today was pretty good day. good time with my mom. i love my mom lol although it sounds a bit weird.

unbelievable

2005-01-29T14:05:00.000-08:00

this is amazingly unbelievable how i gained about 7 pounds this week if not more. guys this is what happens when you do not exercise enough. i can't imgane myself having like 3 layers of fat on my stomach and butt showing out of my boxers. mr. lionel. lol anyway today is saturday and it is meant to be weekend but not for me. i have to go to library to meet up my tutor. and guitar class after the tutor. oh and i might play basketball with some homies that i met at the library. hahaha. mmmmmm. anwyay got to bounce.

sweet deal

2005-01-29T13:57:00.000-08:00

so then i just went to www.xanga.com/amanda_muahz_xoxo which is amandaz site, and as reading it, all of sudden i realized that there was a part where it says "ps. i heart john kim" then i paused for a sec and thinking how sweet she is lol omgg what am i thinking right now!! hahaha. oh yah i just got the most hideous haircut i have ever got in my life. ew . and guess who i saw at the library today?! deborah. we have been talking for a bit and she had to take off because she had to go to work. im bored now

welcome to my new world

2005-01-28T21:05:00.000-08:00

hey. mhmm. it is a bit weird because im pretty much talking to myself. lol by that i mean, do i not have any better stuffs to do than making myself stupid, and how bored can i be right now ! like everyone knoes, i am not feeling good lately so im warning you before hand, you just gotta stop pissing me off or i am gonna have to kick your sturdy a.s.s. im kidding. a lot of stuffs going on in my life, i feel old. but it feels right when i start making few good decisions although i hate doing that.. especially with basketball. it was literally my life, the only fun that i had, but it is taken away again. phew. life sucks. anyhow. mmmmhmm. oh yah the person who made my day today was amanda lol she wrote me 2 notes just today whoa. and said that she hearted me in front of like billion people. hahaha funny too bad that she is 4 years younger than me, if she wasnt, i would have aced her anytime. mhmm. hahaha. anyway i think it is good enough for today. lets try to be happpy. think of happy thoughts.